[-=DoTdOtGeRの世界=-]

为什么，很像有一种，心被掏空的感觉？

空空地。

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Plays Akon's <Freedom> in the background.

Do you smell................................. what the.... dotdot is waiting?

I can!

Now - Mug like shit. No sleep + more coffee + pimplish face + tired eyes.

26.05.10 - ESAP exam

27.05.10 - EOE exam

28.05.10 - S20 gathering @ Marina Barrage

29.05.10 - Sentosa

30.05.10 - MJ/Dinner/F1/Slacking session @ Dotdot's

31.05.10 - Dinner with QQ

For now.. back to mugging..

I have been having too many cravings recently, and today, I succumbed to a few.

Within 10 minutes, I swooped famous amos, ice blended cookies & cream, frozen yoghurt (berrylite ).

Oh, those were just desserts.

Went to grandma's place for dinner and had 汤圆 + fried noodles + rice.

I sense FAT-NESS in the post-taiwan trip.

Better start shaping up.

But heck.

Who cares?

26 more days!

My friend blogged about how she feels stagnant in life at the moment, as she watches her friends move on quickly along the road of life.

And this was my comment for her, something which I feel like sharing.

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自己的人生，自己的脚印，自己的故事，自己的篇章。

没必要和别人比较，因为人各有命。
心灵上的富裕或贫穷，来自于自己的定义，自己的满足感，而不是与别人的落差。
当下的你，可能看不到自己正在漫步地迈向未来。
也有可能，在你眼前所谓‘有成就的同辈们’，是用心酸来换取地。

给个五年吧。
五年后，在评估自己也不迟。

毕竟，你应该问问自己，自己的人生定义是什么？
快乐？幸福？成功？
若能达到自己的目标，就算你是世界上最平穷的，你也同时会是世界上最富裕的。

还没走到尽头，就不会知道谁是真正的大赢家。

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对我而言，只要过得快乐，人生活的精彩，家人与朋友都幸福，多看多听多读多写，这，我就满足了。

很不争气地流下了几滴眼泪。

今天好不开心。

怎么办？

Been kinda distracted from studying for the past 1 hour. Did some miscellaneous & unimportant stuff. Haa. Everything else except studying is considered as unimportant for the month of May.

Stress..

Almost cried yesterday morning upon waking up. Sigh.

Feeling slightly better today but the stress level is still increasing. Argh.

Thank goodness I have Yoyo and Chilly accompanying me. Hee. Kiddish, I know. But I am a sucker for cute stuff and they are too cute for me. Seeing them makes me happy.

Next thursday marks the start of doomsday. I hope I will survive through.

Back to studying.

"Hello! I am Chilly!"

Chilly says 'HI!' while he was in Macau. Heehee. Cutie pie.

We are ♥!

Aahh~ ♥♥♥~

= )

(Yup, totally ranked from high to low. But being obsessions, even the low ones are pretty whacky.)

1. Music

2. F1

3. Bleach

4. MJ

5. Playing games (Currently into 武林英雄 )

6. Badminton

7. Watching my favorite anime or animation movies for N-times.

8. Booze

Maybe I should start naming my subconscious/alter-ego/other self. 'She' has been making a few appearance lately. Hmm.

I woke up to the same type of dream today, the one which I had not too long ago - retaliating what I am unable to in reality.

Somehow, I feel slightly better after the dream.

I want to run away..

.Weird.

.奇怪.

.変.

.extraño.

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Recently filled with odd thoughts. I think I will scare my friends off if I do voice out my thoughts. And I've been asking myself this particular weird question lately. I probably know the answer already, but I keep thinking that the question itself is fascinating.

hehehe.

I am a little weird.

我有点奇怪哦.

私は少しい変ね.

soy un poco extraño.

Headache and in a slightly bad mood now.

Woke up to a nightmare and I can still remember the details of it.

It was scary.

Scary because the entire dream reflected my true happenings in the real world. Except that, I am dealing with them in the opposite way in my dream. It was as though my subconcious woke up and took over when I was asleep.

In reality, I try to avoid any potential conflict, even if it means that I have to swallow a huge amount of pride, ego and truth. I have no choice but to do it this way because it doesn't only concerns me. There will be an impact on others if anything happens.

I would have chose the other path if no one else was involved. Apparently, that is what exactly my subconcious did.

It feels weird in a way. As much as I am annoyed with the dream, I feel relieve at the same time. Cause I did  & said things that I want to, but will never, in the dream.

有点被压抑的感觉。

可是，没办法。

只能忍。

忍一时，风平浪静。退一步，海阔天空。

只是，我必须忍一世，退蛮多步。

ROOARR!

I am back! (Came back on Friday afternoon so this post is like a super belated & procrastinated post. XD)

There's too many things to blog about for this week! Macau, Bleach, F1. But the procratination bug is lurking around so.. I will probably leave everything for tomorrow.. or later.. whenever I am in the mood. hee.

Summary:

Macau trip was ok.

Bleach is like "OMFG. FINALLY!"

And waiting for the arrival of Sunday (12 hours time in fact) - Australia GP - with some of my best buds coming to my house!

Gonna blog while waiting for this game that I am currently into.

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25 more hours.. before I leave home to catch my 6am flight.

Have to wake up at 2am, leave home by 3:30am and I wonder if I will even sleep in the first place.

(Yawning as I speak/write)

Anyhow.. I am kinda excited about this family trip to Macau. Well actually I have mixed feelings about this, but I don't really wanna talk about the negative side of it.

It's been a long time since we went overseas, other than Genting that is. I think the very last trip (that was non-Genting) was 10 years ago to Korea.

As much as I love to soak myself in the company of friend's entertainment, I love being with my family too.

It's a fact that I have this "love-hate" relationship I share with my mum, the "love-annoyed" with my brother and the "love-respect" with my dad.

But all in all, they are my family. Those whom made up the very large part of me.

Without them, there would be no SY. SY would not be the SY today either, something which I am proud of, to be me.

Ahh~ Back to topic before I turn this entry into one that is too 感性. I am saving it for July/August period.

(Crap. I lost track after I went to play my game for awhile.

Ohh.)

Then.. IT'S F1 WEEK AGAIN!

Hee.

Let's hope Alonso can score another win! :D

Hmmm. I'm slowly zoning out. I'll stop here.

Once, I had a good friend asking me, "I wonder what is in your head".

I think this post gives a little insight to what is in it.

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Just like how nothing is impossible, nothing is definite either.

We can never be sure of what's coming, yet words like 'impossible' & 'definitely' have been overused by many.

How can anyone be so sure of what's to come to say, "It is impossible for anyone to...", "There is no way...".

Things might seem unreachable, but hey, who knows right?

Maybe 10, 50 or even 100 years down the road, the 'impossible' might turn into 'possible'. Just ask those who insisted that the Earth was flat.

We only know when it happens.

As long as we are not there, at that specific point to know, we never know what's going to happen!

Thus, before we reach that point, we speculate.

With speculations, there is always a degree of uncertainty.

Throwing that element into the formula, nobody should be saying things for which they cannot guarantee for its happening.

Anything can happen.

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Which are you?

The one who says, "It's impossible".

Or..

The one who attempts to turn the impossible, possible?

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What do you see - A cup of water, half-filled or half-empty?

Half-filled.

All I need to do is to add in somemore.

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Never be too quick to judge. You don't know when you might be judged upon.

In fact, don't even judge. Humans are mostly too subjective to view things from every perspective.

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99% Risk (of danger) VS 1% Chance (of survival) - Which do you see?

I see the chance.

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Give or take?

Give AND take. I try not to be too hard on everybody, and that includes myself.

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Live on the edge, but not the extreme.

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Ok. I ran out of questions for myself. It was pretty fun actually. Hee.

Argh. I have been procrastinating this post.

Tried to write last night. Made another (feeble) attempt this afternoon. And now I am going to just give a short summary.

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What can I say?

The weekend that I had been looking forward to the most has just ended and it has been one heck of a ride - anticipated & well satisfied!

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2010 萧敬腾 洛克先生Mr. Rock 新加坡演唱会

14.03.2010 (Saturday)

两小时又四十五分钟的 Rock out 演唱会，high 到最高点。

Definitely one of the best live singers.

Started the concert with a very high 《王子的新衣》, followed by a medley of mix songs by others.

He showcased his talent in drums & piano too. Loved his drumming.

After showing a 'behind the scene' video footage of different possible ways to introduce himself, we ended up with this - a standup board of him lit up on stage, and he attemped to talk to us for 2 minutes (there was a countdown timer at the screen of 2 minutes). It was really amusing to be staring at the board while listening to him (not sure if it was a live voice over or pre-recorded).

Then, it was a series of cute dancing to 《看我72变》，《爱的抱抱》 & 《Nobody》. He isn't exactly the dancing type so he looked pretty dorky (in a cute way) when he danced. Hee.

An unofficial 'breaktime' came when he introduced Lee Wei Song & an upcoming newbie (whome I forgot his name already). The newbie had - to me - an irritating 鼻音 and I couldn't be bothered. Not very interesting.

The whole show ended in a high note of 《L-O-V-E》 & 《收藏》.

My thoughts:

I went to the concert with a bad flu & mild sore throat. Yet I ended up singing to every single song throughout the whole concert. Mind you, he sang a whole list of songs (plus he does't talk much either :D). Was just thankful that I did not end up with a bad sore throat the next day.

It was awesome rocking concert. I just wished the special guest be 方大同 - it would have been perfect.

Photos:

LQ photos taken at the concert itself cause I was using my handphone - SE Aino (no anti-shake).

A purplish night (FYI: Jam's fans are represented by purple)

See the timer at the back of the stage and the stand-up board version of him?

The Stand-up board

Click here for more photos. (Only photos of the merchandise we bought since I forgot to bring my Camera to the concert.)

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F1 2010 - 1st race - Bahrain

15.03.2010 (Sunday)

Ferrari 1-2 win! [WCC - 43 points - Current leader]

P1 Fernando Alonso [WDC - 25 points - Current leader]

P2 Felipe Massa [WDC - 18 points]

So Vettel took pole position at qualifyings, followed by Massa at P2 and Alonso at P3.

Honestly, I think Alonso could have done better but was just unlucky with a 'not the best' kind of lap. But that's F1.

Red bull is fastest over one lap. No doubt.

After the concert, I was busy catching up with the qualifying news and researching.

Before I went to bed, my conclusion was the same as since the start of the winter testing -

Red Bull will be one of the fastest, but will come with reliability issues.

Alonso would (and eventually did) win the race.

The Red Bull conclusion came from some evidence in 2009, mostly during winter testing and even at Bahrain practice sessions. Along with many, I knew that Red Bull was in top 4, and very fast. Yet somehow, the car felt fragile and I tend to worry for it, wondering whether it might break down anytime, for whatever reason. This was the feeling I had gotten since the start of the winter testing.

The Alonso conclusion, I must admit, is bias. Being a Alonso fan, of course, I would want him to win.

But this conclusion came with an optimistic observation - he was on this odd lucky streak ever since start of winter testing.

For a day or two when it was his turn to be in helm of the F10, where weather forecasts indicated a wet day, it would end up with a day of sunshine through the rain. This was compared to team-mate Massa, who had less of such luck.

Before the race, my dad was telling me how Vettel seemed to be set to win the race. Immediately, I threw it back at him, offering my thoughts of Red Bull's reliability and it would probably break down halfway. Of course, I have been gleeing all day about how Alonso would win the race, despite starting from P3.

The rest is history.

My thoughts:

Unbelivable. This is the best way Alonso could have started this season with his new relationship with Ferrari, and the best way Ferrari could have started this season - making a comeback with a Ferrari 1-2.

Next stop - Australia.

Hopefully Ferrari will re-display its dominance.

I have read many speculations, thoughts, comments on a few topics which I wished I had the time to address. Some thoughts I have on the current affairs of F1 and some comments made by others (internet users) which I felt was unjustified for.

But this is the internet and people have their rights for their own thoughts, be it right or wrong. So it is kind of pointless for me to prove my point.

I will probably leave my thoughts on the current affairs of F1 to my next weekly F1 post.

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Great weekend.

Can I wish upon a star for a cute pony to come rescue me..?

*Clamps hands*

Ahh~ I think it is the post-effect of too much idol drama and idol chasing.

Pony~

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Saw this super cute looking pony (with a weird looking hello kitty sitting on it) at PS yesterday and it has been on my mind since. Am so tempted to buy it and add it to my cuteness collection.

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Went KTV with Kolay along with a special guest appearance - Chilly - and this was what happened!

(Click here!)

5 days to Jam Xiao's Singapore concert

6 days to F1 2010 @ Bahrain

15 days to Macau trip

59 days to DOOMSDAY

90+ days to (potentially) Taiwan trip

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Finally settled my family's Macau trip! Travelling on 23rd-26th March.

Before that, this week is gonna be an exciting week!

That was how I looked like for the past 2 day. It was 2 terrible days, especially Sunday. It started witha  sore throat on Saturday morning. Then it turned into this sneezing marthon from Saturday night onwards. I was sneezing for the whole day on Sunday that I was so worn out by 6pm and I fell asleep. It was the kind where you sneeze consecutively for 1 minute, then after awhile, the routine repeats itself.

I went nuts.

Plus the whole hoo-haa about booking for the Macau trip at home. I was a little annoyed since it took up my whole day. One couldn't be bothered, probably woke up on the wrong side of the bed. Another was just simply giving orders and blabbling away, as usual. I was sneezing all the time while trying to check for the information. And I was too groggy by the end of it.

Nevertheless, I am looking forward to it. Been a long time since the family travel. =)